I have already tried

Today is just a bad day.  There are things that went smoothly, while other things just get me so so so so mad.

Everyone around the house is expecting so much of me, even the maid too.

By default, I am not the soft spoken, nice nice woman.  But I know my weakness, and unashamely, I have been trying to be more like Christ, and is still a work-in-progress.  I have already tried, so why are they still not contented?  I’m not God, and can never be perfect. So why is everyone expecting so much from me, again, even the maid too.

I told off the 2 Es in the house, one E is my son, the other E is my maid.  The young E is a child, and I’m just gonna be more patient.  As for the adult E, if she wants to quit after the lecture, fine, go ahead.  Yes, she is good.  But that doesn’t mean that I deserve that kind of attitude she has been giving me.

Young E’s father too.  Give up talking, and no more comments from me.

Now, in the house, my only comfort and joy is little Z, phew, thank God for your grace to at least let me have this little piece of joy.  Whenever I feel so drained and tired mentally and emotionally, I will just hug her and she seems to have a re-charging effect.

I have tried so hard that I’m now tired.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can I just get out of this house for a while?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!